Desire

So, the marvelous emotion of desire. We desire things that vary from sleep or food to the unattainable world peace and even expand it to desiring to acquire the acceptance of other people in our societies.

In my religion class today we disucssed Song of Songs, which is basically set around desire and love. It got me thinking about what causes one to desire something or somebody else. Would we have the same desires if we did not know the object in the first place? Personally, I don't believe that desires can exist without the knowledge of the lack of whatever is being desired. A good example of this is children and their desires to have certain toys. A child does not realize that it wants a toy until another child starts playing with it, as we have all noticed while babysitting. You find a cool toy to mess around with while this little kid plays with his or her toy, but then he or she sees you playing with this new toy, and desires to play with the same thing you are playing with, and tries to take it from you. That is annoying, but its part of life and we all do it.

So the basic necessity in a desire is lack.

So why, then, when we get what we desire and no long lack what has been desired, do we want more and desire for more than we have? Will we ever be content? Personally, I do not think it is possible for a person to be completley content with life in any way shape or form. Judging by personal experience, it is impossible for one to achieve what is desired and stop entirely.

As well as the desire for a toy, we have the desires for an activity that makes us happy. For me, the most obvious desire is playing violin. The question that I arise for myself in this situation is timing. Why do I get the urge to play violin in the middle of the night rather than during the day when I have time? This time of year, it is easy to say that spring keeps me outside instead of allowing me to desire playing violin. Being outside in nature and smelling the wonderful sounds makes me more happy than playing violin sometimes in the spirng, because I have been stuck in winterness for so long. (excuse the stupidity of these past statemetns.. im rather tired)

So besides this ... yeah its a different day, and I dont really remember what I said about desire before, so im going to say this.

Desire is exactly the want for something we dont ahve, regardless if it is attainable or not. The only reason we desire things is because we see them and are unable to have them at that instant. Why do we want these things we cant have? Basically it's becuase we think for some reason that by attaining them we will improve seomthing about ourselves, whether it be happiness, healthiness, self worth, or whatever. Many times, by desiring things we make up what we think we might acquire if we were to have what we desire. Sometimes, when that happens, we are lying to ourselves, and we really have no idea whatsoever what the outcome will be, but we desire the given subject anyway. Why is that? I dont know. If I did, i woudlnt be writing this and challeging my brain about this stupid topic. I guess one thing that peeves me most about desires is how uncontrolable they are. Think of something you want, and explain why you want it, and when it started, and what you would acquire by having it, and then tell yourself to stop desiring it. Impossible. Almost all of those things are impossible. I guess, you can tell yourlsef why you want to do something, or have something, cause it will make you happy. Is that really something good? Can desires be bad? They certainly can be! Think of those messed up jackasses who have been thrown in jail fr murder or rape. They desire whatever the hell they have done, and that is absolutely in no way shape or form, a good desire.

So if there are good desires and bad desires, how are we supposed to know what is good and what is bad? We cant read into the future. Should we lead our lives based on our desires? I remember when we were all on the kick about leading your life the way you watned it and following your desires. I am rethinking this and have decided that that isnt really the way I want to lead my life. I need moderation with my desires. Control. Maybe its just me, but in thinking about it, we live our lives based on control, sadly enough. Actually, its not sad at all. Control is a very godo way of looking at it. The things I cant expalin and control are the things that frustrate me most about my life, but are also the things that intrigue me the most. Take stars for example. I cant explain why they are there, I cant control where they are, but they are some of the most marvelous things I have ever seen. An example ofr the other part of it is my random arm pain. I cant explain or contorl that, and it is one of the most frustrating things I have ever experienced.

Oh life, full of control, desire, and so much more. There is no way to comprehend it. Why do we keep trying? Why do we have the desire to understand our existance and purpose? I don't know, but I sure as hell keep doing it.

Long, random post, sorry!!

ps. some night, go out and look at the stars when there are 20935 different things you have to be doing, and then think abotu why you should do them. It might just change your outlook on life.