Truth

So, here I sit, at 2:07 am, pondering life and the likes of it all. I have just finished making a wonderful promotional sound clip with a bunch of the coolest people that I have ever met. But, alas, I am now here, full of thoughts and questions, unable to sleep. I have decided that ear-training is a pointless endevour because of my lack of preperation. I believe that I shall practice sight singing and piano during the time that we would normally have class. Pardon the horrible spelling and grammar, it is definately 2:09 am.

As for my thoughts tonight, I want to begin, and hoepfully end, with truth. Is there even a way to define this excessively ambiguous term? I dont think there is. Are you all familiar with the term post-modern? I do hope so because I wasnt until I began my religion class. It basically encompasses our entire thought process and ideas about, well, almost everything regarding truth. The pronoun our is refering to us nerd-squadders. Post-modern thinkers tend to "fragment" as one of our readings said, and deconstruct the truth so that there is no possibility for an absolute truth. This makes so much sense to me, but I definately have some problems with the way they state their ideals and such. Their logic works itself in circles to the point where they contradict themselves. One of their other ideologies (obviously I am making a statement that does not refer to every single post-modern thinker, but i am generalizing) is the inability for anything ot be completley uniform to somehting else. None of you are stupid, so you can determine what this means, but in essence they are saying that no two things can ever be exactly alike. This idea leads to a very vague conception of untiy. In fact, from what I know about post-modernity, please correct me if I'm wrong, a uniting force does not exist, or no uniting force is shown to exist. This must mean that, for some odd reason, people cannot unite for a common purpose. To me, this seems slightly obscure. One of the other main goals of the post-modern "movement" so to speak is the idea that by slowing progress and using what we already know in new ways we will revert back to the days where we could work as a whole. To me, this seems an aweful lot like uniting. That is one point of circular logic. If you believe there is no absolute truth, or even something small that could unite an entire species (human) then how do you expect the entire species to work together. I believe there is something that ties us all together that is not necessarily a truth or undersatnding. If there wasnt something there, would the world exist as it does? Everyone would be looking out for themselves and the welbeing of their loved ones. This does not sew the seeds of happiness and prosperity into people's minds. One way that might explain our desire to maintain relations and such with other humans is our innate desire to belong to a group or social setting. Humans are by nature social creatures, I mean, if you think about it, it takes two adults of our species to make one of us, and raising a human child is very complicated and almost impossible for a single member, especially by the male gender. This is one argument that social networks are so apparent in our species. This relates back to a unifying force by relating to our desire to fit in and be social. We change ourselves sleightly and do things for others in order to be considered part of the group. Not that I am advocating non-conformity, but it is human nature to be social and become happy. Happiness, we all know, is what we live to find.

This is getting off topic, but I will not recind any of the past argument. Sorry, it isnt very strong, but its about the best I can do at 2:20 am when I have to be up so gosh darn early in the morining.

As for truth, it can be almost anything you wish for it to be. We have had the discussions where truth is precicely that, if you believe that god exists, he exists and there is a god and he is the creator and he is all powerful. If you believe that there is no god, there is no god, he is not a creator and has no power. If you believe that my cats created the universe (which is bogus, but you see where I'm headed), then my cats were the creators and whatever else you believe. I would go one step further and say that god exists no matter what, if for nothing else, because somebody somewhere believes it. Well, I can easily counter this argument by saying that there is probably somebody somewhere who compeltely disagrees with this, and says that just because one person believes in god, it doesnt mean it is so. So what is to happen if I say that it is so, and this other person says that it isnt so. Who is right? Do we use it like multiple choice on a test? Which is MOST right? Cant there be one right thing and one wrong thing? No, this is most definately not possible. Just because I say the red violin had amazing music and makes me drool and blabber like a small baby doesnt mean that it is true in that respect for every person who hears it, though I have yet to meet someone who wasnt completley impressed with this soundtrack.

Beyond that, why do we continue to search for truth after we decide that there is no truth beyond what we know? Why do we look for this ambiguous (gosh i cant spell that word) existance of something that we have claimed does not exist. I also believe this can be related to human nature. When we dont undersatnd somehting, we investigate until we figure out what is going on and can take control of the situation. This is one situation that humans have yet to gain control of. Is it better this way? I believe so. We as humans are not meant to know every aspect of everythign. There are things that need to remain vague and questionable. Think about this. Life with no questions, everyting is straight forward and laid out for you. How horrible and boring would that be?!

Sleep has finally tapped on the door to my brain and has compeltely shut it off for the night. I shall be awake excessively early tomorrow (7am, which is only 4 hours and 26 minutes from now). I do believe that I will be skipping ear training for lack of ability to concentrate on anything, and will practice piano during the time that I would normally be in class. I believe I have stated this earlier in the entry, but I guess I felt that it needed to be said again.

Tomorrow: SILENCE!